This film originated from the idea to create a media library of the pre-war Donetsk from family archives. First, I collected my archive materials and then realized that it was time to express reflections on the occupation of Donetsk, my dear home, in a film-cry conveying as accurately as possible everything I have felt for 10 years: from a 15-year-old teenager to 25-year-old woman who wants finally deal with these difficult experiences and move on.

All the film scenes are shot in the Donetsk region. Almost everything you’ll see in the video is destroyed: all my childhood, everything that shaped me as a person, that fulfilled and keeps fulfilling me.

I’ve always wanted to become a director and this film is unique because I created it in a collaboration with a younger me. As I was 10-13, I filmed a lot on my Olympus digital camera and tried very hard to edit all the material. But I had an old computer and an editing program often crashed. At 25, I edited a material about little me and so I connected myself with the time and space before the occupation, with me as a happy kid not traumatized by war, eager to create, film, and just be.

Why are people unhappy? It gives viewers a chance to face a displaced person's pain and experience it physically to some extent during 11 minutes. I believe that it can help people without a relevant background to understand the problem of displaced people.